missing

maybe someday you'll look up,
and barely concious you'll say to no-one
isn't something missing?

isn't someone missing??

painted faces fill the places i can't reach . . .

a lil' bit of an insight :)

Three Names You Go By

1. Sarah
2. Weeez
3. Sazzle

Three Screen Names You Had

1. Riot~Girl
2. EvilVampirePenguin
3. BillieBobJebus

Three Physical Things You Like About Yourself

1. Hair
2. The girls ha ;)
3. Tattoos / Piercings

Three Physical Things you dont like about yourself

1. Skin
2. Whatever it is about me that makes people think im japanese. . seriously WTF?!?!?
3. Everything else

Three Parts of your heritage

1. Cabra
2. Ballyfermot
3. Bit of more cabra

Three things that scare you

1. DEEP WATER
2. pigs!
3. midgets/children

Three of your everyday essentials

1. music!
2. soup/ugos panini
3. phone

Three things you are wearing right now

1. BFMV tshirt ha
2. Jeans
3. Purple bra

Three of your favourite bands or musical artists

1. Paramore
2. Foo Fighters
3. H.I.M.

Three of your favourite songs right now

1. Paramore - (all their stuf) but their cover of Use Somebody, in prticular for now
2. H.I.M. - the funeral of hearts
3. Seether feat Amy Lee - broken

Three things you want in a relationship

1. Love
2. Laughter
3. Trust

Three of your favourite hobbies

1. music!
2. drawing/photography
3. going to comedy shows

Three things you want to do really badly right now

1. Robert Pattinson
2. Sing along to paramore SO LOUD!!
3. Check my farm

Three careers you have considered

1. Pathologist (seriously haha!)
2. Chef
3. Social worker

Three places you want to go on vacation

1. FORKS!
2. New Zeland
3. Finland

Three Names you like

1.Akasha
2.Benji
3.Hayley

Three things you want to do before you die

1. grow a beard!!
2. Robert Pattinson
3. learn how to play my guitar

Three Ways that you are a stereotypical girl

1. eh . . . i like playin with make up
2. umm. . ..eh . .
3. no thats as girly as i am . .

Three fantasy dinner guests

1. Hayley Williams
2. Ville Valo
3. Cartman

Three must haves

1. iPod
2. Photos
3. drawing stuff

fat day in bray BRE!!

So, myself and The Daily Dreamer, on one of our days of cameras, wandering and LOTS of food resuts in this :) . . . .

well, i guess ill make my own way . . .

mmmmmmmmm hayley williams!!

are you happy out there, in this great wide world??

I'm sitting here, looking out of my window. . . There's a strange man standing beside a shiny black car parked right outside my house. He's waiting for something. I walk towards the window to get a better look, hiding behind the curtains so he doesn't catch me watching him. How embarrassing would that be??

This man is my father. His face telling me the story I'm so desperately trying to forget.

It's funny how relationships change. One day hes my hero, my role model, every bar of the person I want to grow to be.

But now its been 4 yrs, and I'm looking at this man who I don't know.. .

I see my brother walk up to him, get in the car and they drive off. . . chatting I assume, about school, and . . um I dunno, what do fathers talk about with their children again?? . .

But I'm watching this scene and I'm feeling ashamed of how relieved I am that I don't have to do what my dear brother just did. .

just let them think, theres no place else youd rather be . . . .

It's midnight. I.m waiting to cross the road, all of my attention, transfixed on a vivid red, golden leaf falling from a sycamore tree, floating gently towards the ground.

It's Autumn, the season of change. I can sense it, it feels mysterious, exciting! But as i continue walking, leaves crunching beneath my feet, i find myself thinking, what exactly is changing??

I don't usually do the whole new years resolution thing, but this year i made an exception. Yes, by 31st of December 2009, everything will be different. I was going to change my life completely, my general outlook, my attitude, my total defensiveness. I will be a different person by the end of the year.

I have always believed that there was some sort of plan laid out for me, and because of this, i felt sort of. . .invincible. Like no matter what came my way, i would overcome it. No matter how down or depressed i got, I'd always come out of it because that's not part of 'the plan'

but now . . .I'm not too sure. . .

It's been a difficult few weeks. Life seems to be throwing everything at me, pushing my limits simply to see where my breaking point is, and it seems that at any moment, life is about to break me.

Yes, I promised myself things would be different. But, looking out the window, I see Summer is very quickly changing to Autumn. I'm watching the leaves falling from the trees, the nights get longer, colder. The skies get quieter as the birds escape the gloom of winter.

I'm standing here, completely still, stuck . . .living the same day over and over again and again, watching everyone else around me grow and move on with their life.

The year is coming to an end and I'm not keeping any of my promises to myself.

If change is so good, why am i so afraid??